They are growing up so fast!

I do not know much about blogging, but now that I have started I really enjoy it. Some day I will know more about it and maybe even join a group. Until til then....I will just tell you about my life. Tomorrow is my baby's birthday. He will be turning 10! I look forward to making their birthday a special day. It never fails, something always has to come up. Every year we take the kids to their choice of a restaurant for their birthday. It just so happens baseball practice starts tomorrow night. So we chose to go today instead. We ended up at Pizza Hut! It was a nice time, even though they do not sing Happy Birthday. Instead of the norm, cupcakes, G chose marshmellow treats made with honey nut cherrios. He and I made them together, what fun. We had marshmellow everywhere! We shaped them into balls and added sprinkles. They are so cute! I am amazed everyday, to see how much he has grown into a young man. He still is the one that gives me kisses and never once forgets to tell me how much he loves me. I pray that it will never end. Just the other day, he packs a backpack with many of toys, and heads outside to play. He still has a little bit of kid in him still....I so want to hold onto that as long as I can. Hubs and I look at him and smile with all the joy that he brings. Happy Birthday, G!

I have had this dream for a very long time. I have been thinking of this, now more than ever!
When I was a child, I remember going to a bakery with my mom and Grandmother. My brother and I would go in and pick out a donut and sit on the stools that twisted around. I am not sure when it closed. As a family we started to go to NYC on day trips, what a difference in so many oppurtunities. I did some research on bakeries, and came across cupcake bakeries. WOW, what fun they were to visit. My brother lives in Baltimore and we would often go to Little Italy.
Vaccaro's bakery is wonderful! In the small town that I live in, the only place you get baked goods are in a supermarket. I have dreamed of owning my own bakery for as long as I can remember. Yesterday, I spent some time researching cupcake recipes, business start up, and bakeries from around the world. It was exhausting, but now more than ever, this is what I want to do. I am not sure how to get started or even where to start. So I thought tomorrow would be a perfect day to try out a cupcake for G's birthday. Chocolate Peanut Butter cupcake!

Wow, another day gone by already. Hard to believe that March has come and gone. I have not posted in a while. I have been working a little more hours than the norm. My rein of working has come to an end, and I will be back on my regular two days per week. I love the extra money, but I feel like everything around the house gets so backed up...including spending time with my kids. I always wonder how all these bloggers find the time. Between making dinners, homework, cleaning up from dinner, and just plain household things that need done daily. When is there time? I truely need time to myself. I do enjoy blogging, it is nice to express yourself. Even though I tend to sit here thinking of all the other things that I should be doing.
My son will be leaving Elementary school this year, to move on to the middle school. They will have a talent show the last day of school. A few of his friends decided to participate and sing a song from the Jonas Brothers. They practiced after school today. They were really good. My son has a natural talent! I also received some disturbing news about my fourth grader. He is not doing the work that he needs to do. It is amazing how different each and every one of my children are. My oldest has no struggles with school work, as well as my 5th grader. Then I have baby, the third born, seems to not have matured as quickly as the other two. Of course he is the baby, and I tend to excuse alot of the behavior. I worry about him so. I want them all to suceed, and push to work harder. Then in the long run, they will have easier choices. Not like me, still wondering what it is that I am to be doing in my life. I pray that God will guide them and help them with their struggles.

My baby has his 10th birthday on Monday. The years seem to fly bye. Sometime I miss those days of cuddling with them in my arms. The smell of baby breath, the innocence of them, and the peace that they brought. To go back for just one day, or two....

I know as crazy as our lives can be sometimes, I would not ever want to change anything. I want to savor the moment that I have with these precious children. Even though we have our days. My prayer is that they go down the path that God leads them, and that I have given them the knowledge to move forward.

I have been wanting to make a post last week, but did not have time. My life is no other than crazy! I survived my son's birthday sleep over. He had a blast! He slept most of the afternoon on Saturday. To be a kid again...and be able to stay up that late, and sleep the next day! We had a birthday party for a relatives 40th birthday on Saturday evening. It was so nice to be able to be with family on such a special day. God had planned the day to be exceptionally warm, for this time of year. We had a chance to spend time out beside the firepit. I must say that there is absolutely nothing like a camp fire. It might even be one of my favorite smells. It just takes me back to so many memories as a kid and as a family now. Our family just loves to go camping. Peaceful, is just one word to describe sleeping in the woods.
Being in the mountains just amazes me as to what God has made. Not to mention that it brings our family together, like no other vacation has done.

On Sunday, I went to church with my mother and my husband. The kids were staying over at relatives. I should back up to before I went to church. See it was daylight savings time this weekend. We sprung forward! Which means we lost an hour. To say the least, I really could have slept in, easily slept in. So glad that I did not, I always feel so much better when I go to a Church service. The sermon really hit hard. The Pastor was talking about the table of God. We as Christians should come to the table, and he talked about the meaning of communion. As I sat there and listened, I realized that I am not the Christian that God wants me to be. I am a born again Christian, I believe that God died for me on the cross so that I may live again. I know that I need to do more....lay it out on the table and let it all in God's hands. We then had communion.....the band sang.....at the end of the song, they add What can wash away my sins, nothing but the blood of Jesus. Every time this year, when Easter approaches, I think of the pain Jesus had to endure for me. That song plays over in my head, nothing but the blood of Jesus. WOW, what a powerful song! What can I do to become closer to God......

March 4, 2009

A day of thinking alot...tomorrow is my sons 11th birthday. This is his last year in Elementary school. I made cupcakes today, and it was so sad. This will be the last time that I will be able to send something special . I guess that I am realizing that they are growing up way to fast. Let me tell you a little bit about myself. I have been a stay at home mom for 11 years. I started back to work part time, two years ago, as a preschool teacher. This is only two days a week, for three & a half hours a day. So I still consider myself a stay at home mom. I truly love my life, as much as I like helping out with the household income, this is what I have been doing for so long. Last month I had a thought to apply for a job that I found interesting, exciting and fun.

Working for a small commercial airline. I was hired two days after the interview! Wow, I thought I still have what it takes. I was excited about the flying benefits that it would give to our family. Not to mention that I would be helping our finances. When I received a little bit of information that I did not recieve in the interview process. They wanted me to go to Boston for 9 days. What? I can't even go out with friends, without feeling guilty. I have been praying to God, to help me figure out what to do about our finances. My husband's job is slowing down, due to the economy. Then this opportunity became available. Boston? For 9 days? I could not see my kids, husband and my cute little animals. I was in tears for hours, confused, overwhelmed and a decision weighing on my mind. At that point, I asked God to show me what it was I should do.
I kind knew that if I was having this much turmoil over this position, was it worth it. After thinking things through, I decided not to take the position, due to my prior obligations at my current teaching job. I felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders. Now that I am thinking straight and have all my ducks in a row. I realized that the week that I would be gone, would be during my sons birthday. Life flies by so fast, children are gone in a blink of an eye, my place is at home with my children. I would not have it any other way! Happy Birthday BooBoo!