March 4, 2009

A day of thinking alot...tomorrow is my sons 11th birthday. This is his last year in Elementary school. I made cupcakes today, and it was so sad. This will be the last time that I will be able to send something special . I guess that I am realizing that they are growing up way to fast. Let me tell you a little bit about myself. I have been a stay at home mom for 11 years. I started back to work part time, two years ago, as a preschool teacher. This is only two days a week, for three & a half hours a day. So I still consider myself a stay at home mom. I truly love my life, as much as I like helping out with the household income, this is what I have been doing for so long. Last month I had a thought to apply for a job that I found interesting, exciting and fun.

Working for a small commercial airline. I was hired two days after the interview! Wow, I thought I still have what it takes. I was excited about the flying benefits that it would give to our family. Not to mention that I would be helping our finances. When I received a little bit of information that I did not recieve in the interview process. They wanted me to go to Boston for 9 days. What? I can't even go out with friends, without feeling guilty. I have been praying to God, to help me figure out what to do about our finances. My husband's job is slowing down, due to the economy. Then this opportunity became available. Boston? For 9 days? I could not see my kids, husband and my cute little animals. I was in tears for hours, confused, overwhelmed and a decision weighing on my mind. At that point, I asked God to show me what it was I should do.
I kind knew that if I was having this much turmoil over this position, was it worth it. After thinking things through, I decided not to take the position, due to my prior obligations at my current teaching job. I felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders. Now that I am thinking straight and have all my ducks in a row. I realized that the week that I would be gone, would be during my sons birthday. Life flies by so fast, children are gone in a blink of an eye, my place is at home with my children. I would not have it any other way! Happy Birthday BooBoo!